Good morning beautiful day!

There is something so awesome about waking up early! It's so refreshing and invigorating to watch the clock tick away with the reassurance that I HAVE PLENTY OF TIME until the little dragon wakes up in the next room... (I assure you I mean little dragon in a very loving/caring way)  I love to start my day like this although it's not always my decision seeing that sometimes I decide to stay up way to late to get "my time" in. 

It's been a pleasant couple hours, I feel like it's going to be and already is an amazing day!

Thank you to my sisters blogs, I was laughing my face off when I read hugs water one.. If you read my comment you'll know why....    Have a sweet day, love you guys! 
we are going camping tonight, so I once again have just popped in for a min and will be gone again...   then min will be here :)

Let's talk about Ironic......

I have a big family. That I love with all my heart! It's pretty much all I've blogged about on here...     well as of late I have found myself with super sensitive feelings.  I don't think I will go into a whole lot of detail here, only that I have felt misunderstood, and have chosen to take it personal.....   I was crying while talking to jason a couple weeks ago (which we have resolved) and then mom and amy saw me have an outburst over something really lame...

Although,  I made a joke to jason about how old he was on his birthday, which he was sad about, and I don't think he saw any humor in my comments..  I WAS REALLY TEASING!  But I didn't realize when I jabbed at him that he might actually be having a hard time with it....

then I went on to poke at min today after mom was telling me about the blogs...   I again didn't put any consideration into how she might be feeling or the kind of mood/day she is having..  and that she is really sick of hearing about it....  AGAIN, REALLY TEASING!   

I am once again learning that sometimes it is really hard to get a feel for the comment being made when it is in a text or a blog...  With out the personal voice inflections its hard to know sometimes. It could be taken either way. 

 "what goes around comes around" so I know I can count on that..  and  I may not have the same sense of humor as everyone.   I'm sure this won't be the last time I am reminded of this lesson....

Mostly I wanna remind myself, that you just never know until you are in that person's shoes!
 

Oh so very grateful!!!

When I look back on my life, all my journeys and adventures, it brings a huge smile to my face. All the good times, crazy times, sad times, but mostly all the happy times! I know I always seem to say the same things on here but man, I LOVE MY HUSBAND,  AND MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER!!!

I honestly cannot imagine that my life could ever be any fuller than it is right now! I love living close to my family!  It's so nice to get to see all my brothers and sisters/bro and sister in-laws on a more regular basis, and be involved in their lives.. I love to know that Seerie will grow up knowing her Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles and cousins...   It's crazy to me how the time has flown. How our immediate family is growing, and eventually will be "too big" and we will have our own little family get togethers (Maybe we will start our own version of the DDB's)  THANK GOODNESS that time is far down the road. That's kind of sad to think about.... So let's move on.....    

I love that my friends are my family, and that my family are my friends. I am just very grateful for the love that we have always grown up with, and that our parents have always shown to us! That we are able to show to each other as siblings..  I know that living close also comes with times of  maybe "too closeness".. However nothing that a few days break won't cure! haha..  

I feel that life is too short to hold grudges, too short to live worrying about hurting someone's feelings and instead holding onto and becoming bitter towards a person that you love. I feel that our family has gotten much better in this department. We may fall back into old habits from time to time, but shoot... As a whole I think we have grown up a lot!  I am thankful for the strong family bond that we have!!!  I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!

I love my husband with all of my heart, soul, with every fiber that is in me! I love him more and more every day (which seems like it's not possible at times I feel as though my heart will explode if I jam any more love into it... and yet it never does.. It's amazing how it always stretches a little bigger.) I learn so much from him, he is soooo smart, and so gifted!!  He seems to always have the answers I am searching for, and if he doesn't, he searches until he does. I so admire that about him!  HE IS AN INSPIRATION TO ME, I LOVE HIM!!!

It's such a gift, and a miracle to look into my daughters eyes every morning... and see a part of myself, a part of my husband, AND A WHOLE LOT OF HER AWESOME SWEET SPIRIT looking back at me!  She is a bubbly bright light in our lives.. There is not one second that goes by that I am not so amazed by her! I love to watch her pick up and study something new... an object, or a new noise someone is making, it's sweet to see her little wheels in her head just turning...    She gets a serious look on her face, and then just watches...  It usually takes about a day or two, and whaaaaat?!??..    now she's making that sound or face..
I have busted her more than once in her bed practicing new things!! It's so funny!  I LOVE SEERIE WREN SOOOOO MUCH!!!

I just want to say how very grateful I am for my life that I love! On this Thanksgiving I really feel that my heart is so full, and that this year more than any other, I have so much to be grateful for!



 

Continued..... So read my previous post then come back to this!

Our last stop was at Mom and Dad Dana's.....   We stayed there about an hour and 1/2 as well then headed hm around 11pm... It was a jam packed night but it was awesome that Seerie got to see all of her !!    

Wow...  I just Deleted this whole blog!!!!!! I'm so pissed right now....   It was really good to... 

Well now you all get the short version......    

Sunday- Football, and that night Seerie barfs again... everywhere.  

    Golden and I decide to have some left over soup......    You guessed it, I woke up at 1am blowing chunks, FOR REALS!        So today, Monday, I feel like super doodie... Seerie threw up around noon. I gave her a bath and got her cleaned up...   She just threw up AGAIN.....   ALL OVER THE PLACE.  

I've spent the whole day trying to console her, and then Golden and I both have been on the job since he got hm around 6......      She is still crying in her room as I write this. Golden and I are at a lose as to what to do now...   It has literally been all day that she has been crying, and I know her tummy hurts but she cant get to sleep....   

I will sign off now and go get her....      poor baby, this sucks!!!

I go to Vegas tomorrow night, and to the DMV in the morning... So I will get back in touch with you sisters next week! love you, K

Welcome to the house of puke.....

WHOA, WHOA..... Let's break down the weekend a little...  

THURSDAY-  (which is not the official start of most peoples weekend but it is the start of ours seeing as Golden works 4-10's giving him every fri, sat, sun off!!)    I made a fantastic chili soup that my client had given me last Christmas. It came with directions and a seasoning packet along with some snowflake shaped pasta noodles... Also these adorable soup bowls w/red snowflakes on them. Very festive. I have been looking at this little package for almost a year now, why not cook it on up!  It also gave me a chance to use my food processor that mom gave us for Christmas like 2 yrs ago, BONUS! Oh, wait.... Was I supposed to puree the onion/green pepper and garlic?!!... NO I was not, however that's what happened, and it all turned out. It was delicious!!! So delicious in fact that I gobbed up 2 MONSTER HUGE bowls of it. Along with many pieces of garlic bread...   YUMMMMMMMMMM!!!


MMkk, Dinner was scrumdiddlyumscious and the evening was going great.....                              

HOLD UP! What the HECK!!?!  GOLDEN!!  Seerie totally threw up on me!!!   AGHHHH, GET ME A TOWEL OR SOMETHING, SICK!  Man, that was so sick.. Like real throw up......          Darnit, are you feeling ok baby? She seemed ok, we laid her back down and went to bed..............

5am-   I wake up...............        OHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOO... This is not gonna be good!   I run to the bathroom,  BARFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF......    This is not the kind of throw up I would wish on my worst enemy!! (skip a few lines if you so choose, this is gonna get a little graphic)       Remember I had gorged myself with CHUNKY STEW!!  This was the heaviest throw up of all time! It was splashing back in my face!! Leaving  chunks in my mouth.............. 3 times of this gut hurling vomiting....   

I vowed I would not eat one more drop of that soup!

Friday-   Having thrown up all morning it was a laid back day of recovery....  Until we all ventured out that night on our big trip to target....  

Saturday-  We lounged around in the morning, then got ready and headed down to see all the grandparents for Halloween.....  

  Here was our first stop at Golden's step sisters house.. Goldens dad, Golden W. and Gaye were up from Vegas, so we visited with them about an hr. then on to our next destination......      

Then we headed out to Golden's mom's, more hamming it up for the camera, and admiring her sweet pantalonies and leg warmers......       After about an hr 1/2 we headed to our final and last stop of the night.... 

BRING ON THE GIFTS YO!!!!!

I realize that I have been a total looooooooserrr w/my blogging attempts this past month. I realize this because coming up already this next Tuesday we will be heading back to vegas already...... WHHHHHAAAAA???  I cannot believe this last month just seemed to slip through my fingertips. (I mean that literally, haha, since I didn't blog)    No really though, I guess somewhere between "Don't Forget the Lyrics, Fuse Music video count downs, and LAME (I'm really not proud of) reality death traps such as Millionaire Matchmaker, Flipping Out, etc."  my time got whittled down...........    

Now that that's out of the way let's move on shall we......  

I received a letter from my dear sister Heather Anne last night, and I must say it was a welcomed one for sure! I have been reading my sisters blogs a bit hear and there (I am surrendering to the fact that I'm not going to get all the way caught up w/you two, and that's OK. I will take it from here, and one day when I get away from the tv long enough to read a bit, I will have a whole lot of stories waiting for me!!)  I noticed a bit of chatter about "gifts" ....   I must say this sparked my interest.     

So the letter stats pretty much that 29 days of giving will change my life. I know that this is already true. I am taken back to a time when I was participating in some classes that NO DOUBT were focused on gift giving in the form of  being conscious, and totally aware AND ENGAGED with those around me.....      IT ABSOLUTELY CHANGED MY LIFE! FOREVER!!!!!    

The sad thing about it is that as the time has gone by I have slowly let some of those things go.....   What an amazing feeling to really connect with everyone you see. Through their eyes!! How often I look around or to the ground lately. I most always have my sunglasses on when I am on my way to or from my house, (only because most of the time I have no make-up on and I feel a "need" to hide my face. Therefore my eyes!) and  I know that it is disconnecting me with those around me.  

So YES, Hug. I will take your challenge!  

GIFT #1-  This evening Golden and I decided to pack up baby and head to target. It was around 7 or so, and lil Seerie bird was already getting very tired. (She usually goes to bed around 8)  So I told Golden, we don't have much time, let's hustle!

We proceed to dink around target for about, well, just short of 2 hrs....  
Let's just say our little dear was as good as we could have asked of her. By the time we were checking out her tears were a constant down her face, although she was not crying, she was in fact still pulling out her big smiles at the cashier.  It was obvious to her parents though that we had pushed her to her limit as we saw her smile was a painful one, and as much as she was holding back her grunts were getting louder and more sad by the min....    

We pulled in to the parking lot, loaded up all our crap (if you picture a homeless pushing a cart loaded to the gills with everything imaginable that's how we look pretty much 99.9% of the time as we load Seerie's stroller up w/blankets, groceries, HER of course as I have on a diaper bag back pack, And my purse)   So we make it to the elevator...   da dee daaaaaa... going up. OH, Oops, Here comes a lady. Golden and I fumble around to get the door open.   Ok, come on in.      It's a blonde haired lady, she is also going to the 4th floor. She is not making any kind of eye contact. We are looking at Ser, making little chatter, oh, here we are.   We all start walking down the hall.... The lady is in front of us, and I am trying to stop a bit so we aren't on her heels, Golden doesn't seem to care so much about that as he is ready to be home...............              

WELL, She is still walking down the hall. She is getting closer to our door, and whoa whoa...... wait a min...........        

This is our next door neighbor.. LET ME TELL YOU A LITTLE SOMETHING ABOUT OUR NEIGHBOR......    She was extremely RUDE to me one evening while I was sitting outside on my deck.. Let's just say, we have never meet, we have had bad blood, and we have NEVER felt any kind of desire to make friends with this lady.......  

As she stopped at her door, she was lingering there, waiting and looking on at us....  I looked at her, smiled, and said, "Have a good night"  and I really meant it!  This may sound like a simple thing, but the part about stepping outside of myself, going out of my way was definitely the bigger picture her.  

I was happy to let it go! To see that she was kind of smurkingly looking at us, like she knew who we were, and we knew her, and I made effort to look back at her and say something.  I know that had I not been open to this challenge I would have been looking straight ahead, and as soon as I stepped inside would've been talking trash.....     I already feel better!!!!!!!!!  

Thank you hug, for extending your challenge to the rest of us and enlightening our lives!!! Love you!!!   

P.S. Hug, and Min, You guys gotta go on Don't Forget the Lyrics! I keep telling Golden, maybe I already mentioned it to you hug, but check it out!!! You can win 50 THOUSAND, why not try?!!  It's a karaoke game show on VH1...   :)       

I love to go, I LOVE to be Home!

So I'm doing things a little different today. Normally when I get on to blog, I read my sisters blogs and comment so by the time I'm ready to blog my window named seerie's naptime is gonejo.  Instead I will blog now and catch up later!
Let's go back like 2 weeks... I had a freak out/melt down on Golden. Probably for something really lame, and it was brought to my attention that this is the cycle that repeats itself every ding dang month. I fail to realize (until I have a blow up) that I begin to get really stressed out about a week before it's time to go down to vegas. Well I know that I get stressed, I think it's not really that bad until I have a come apart... Let's think for just a few seconds of our mother..... Now we were always going along, EVERYTHING GREAT, life as we kids knew it was, well,  pretty awesome... all of the sudden, BAMSHLINGSHANGINGFORD..    Mom's pissed, yelling, slamming things around,  followed up by crying.. leaving everyone in the house super quiet, wishing themselves to the size of an ant to hopefully (cross our fingers) not cause any more waves...

So I'm like my mother after all!!!! Love you mom, I wouldn't want it any other way! haha. However, I really didn't realize how stressed I was feeling. I know that I do this to myself every month, and I am committing to shift out of this nonsense!

I think it was when Golden said, under his breath a little, "I know. it's the same thing every month. this happens every time."............      So after calming down, getting a hold of myself, I told him.. "I am going to have the best week down in vegas. I'm going to be really busy, and clients are going to get a hold of me to come in that I haven't seen for a while. I'm going to enjoy every client, and have a good time! I'm not even going to be stressed, and it's not going to feel like I'm even that busy but I will make more money this time than I have (since I've just been working the 2/2 1/2 days)"  

LET ME TELL YOU WHAT!   I was for the first time ever, super relaxed and enjoying myself! (I always enjoy myself but not as much because I get overwhelmed in the back of my head) I was not stressed at all, I was super busy, I was thinking of our conversations in our blogs and how we've been talking about being in the moment, REALLY TAKING IN EACH MOMENT, and I really did! I was for the most part on time, (give or take a half hr here and there) Before we left to come down I had heard from a couple clients that I hadn't seen for awhile and got them in... I made more money than I have been making, and I had a blast!  I KNOW that our words are so powerful! It is something that amazes me time and time again! It is so true, and I KNOW that it is.. Why I get caught up in the nonsense and stress, Not anymore I tell you!

I wrote a few posts back about my clients, and doing hair gives me a way to connect on a different level w/them. I feel like because I wrote it down, and verbalized it, it also made me more aware of my time with them, and really take it all in.  I also know that for me to open up to Golden, and share what's going on in my head is so awesome for us.  I am indeed grateful for this blogging!